Did you ever wake up one morning and say to yourself, enough is enough! Life is not working and i need to find out why.
I did that. I had a very good life, good job, good friends, and good relationships.
So why then did I feel like I was always struggling against life? That somehow life was going right and I was going left?
sugar pie, I said to myself, you better get this figured out!
So I sat and I thought. And thought some more. And for the next couple of weeks, I did a lot of sitting and thinking. And believe me, it's not something I recommend unless you've got to do it, it gives you a headache.
At first I was me, a person whom I thought was in control of my life, but always feeling and knowing there was something missing. What? I was not at all sure. I mean here I was just going through life, trying to find what it was that was missing, and where the missing pieces of myself were.
One day while walking I happened upon a book shop, I looked inside and found some different but great reading material. I bought a few books and took them home to read. Once having read them I looked on the computer for similar reading material. Upon finding some I was overjoyed, as I thought to myself……..this could be it.
The thing I was looking for. And I felt so good seeing how much there was and how many other people were already where I wanted and needed to be.
As time passed I met some people that were into the same thing as me. Though I still felt very weird and scared of what I was doing, and very shy. And even as scared and confused as to who I was I started to get to know a few of the people that I had met. It was here that I met the person whom was to become a very big influence in my life, my Master.
My Master
A man of great wisdom, care, love, mercy and patience, a man with whom I would spend a great deal of my time. A man that would take me and mold me and help me mold myself into who I really was.
A story that is yet not finished, but has come thus far.
And so it started my journey into becoming the real me, the me deep inside of my being, the true me. It started with learning to trust and has continued to build from there.
The death, well, death is the ending of one life and for some the beginning of a new existence Where does my story go from here? I don't know. At least I don't know all the places I have yet to go. All I know is that the journey is one I want to keep taking.
...........sugar pie
The Death -- A Fantasy of A Reality
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